But this is reality. We couldn't be together all day forever. She has to go to school and I have to go to work. It's life. But i am adjusting to this new life with so much time apart from her. It's just hard because i feel like I am losing some influence on her life....does anyone know what I mean? She is in the care of so many different people now, her teacher, my mom, her babysitter...That is a lot of different standards of behavior and random amounts of accountability, etc. So this is just something I am really praying through and asking God to help guide me through.
On a lighter note, this is Neema's FIRST 'real' Halloween!!! She was with me last year during Halloween http://babyneema.blogspot.com/2009_10_01_archive.html and we dressed up but there were no pumpkins, trick or treating, or CANDY!!! So she is in for a thrill! With my brother, we went and picked out pumpkins last weekend. She was quite obsessed with the little ones. I told her she could get her very own little one and then told her to come help me choose between the fat and round one versus the skinny and tall ones...she only cared about the little one. HA! She doesn't even know you need a big one so can cut off the top and dig out all the gooey orange stuff.....she doesnt know that you carve out a face and put a candle inside that makes it light up the night....She doesn't know that you can cover the pumpkin seeds in salt, brown sugar, or garlic and place them in the oven to eat with warm apple cider. She doesn't know she is about to get HOOKED UP with a basket full of every sugary sweet that no amount of toothpaste will be able to remove! She doesn't know! It's all so exciting!!
There is this really awesome group of people in Atlanta who have all either adopted or are in the process of adopting, some of them for the second time, and about once a month we get together for family fellowship and for our little ones to get to grow up together. It is really beautiful to see all of the littles running around and hearing all the God stories that brought each one home. This Friday we had a "screen on the green" with popcorn and smores....AMAZING! :) What a wonderful club we belong to!
