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Saturday, October 31, 2009

COURT

Ok I just wanted to give everyone a little update. I shudder to even write this...we will not be meeting in court on November 5th. The social welfare officer has been called to Headquarters in Dar Es Salaam and therefore will not be present at my court date. All of this to say, we are once again waiting for another finalizing court date. Please pray that it will be scheduled within the next few weeks. All courts close down from mid-December to mid-January for Holidays so it is very important that Neema and I finalize before this happens. This has been such a roller coaster, I had no idea....but I continue to seek God's face in all of this and pray with expectation that He will deliver us from this season.

Through an adoption lawyer in GA I am now applying for a form called the i600 which will allow Neema to become an American citizen. This is also a lengthy process. My hopes are once I finalize here I will then be able to acquire a visitor's visa for Neema to come home while we wait out the i600 paperwork. This has proven not to be an easy feat as a friend of mine who just adopted 2 children legally here in Tanzania is struggling to get them back to USA on visitors visa and she works for the UN!!! So what we need is PRAYER. I just want my little girl home to meet her family and introduce her to that world.

I will continue to keep you updated as I learn more. Thanks so much for all of your love and support. In the meantime, HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

My Angel

Friday, October 23, 2009

Penda!!!

So I was driving down the street the other day when I see this man outside my window holding two puppies....i dont know what happened but my rational side just shut off. I immediately find myself pulling over and asking "how much?!" When he told me 20,000 Tsh (less than 20 dollars) my roommates and I looked at each other and just did it. We bought a random dog off the street! Two babies and now a puppy? Are we CRAZY? Yes...the answer is undoubtedly yes. But his name is Penda which means Love in kiswahili and well he is cute...but somehow i forgot how puppies cry all night...tee tee everywhere...nip at your heels...and chew on everything!
I am hoping to move soon into a house where Penda can live outside!! I keep rationalizing this decision with it will be an investment and great security. Tanzanians are terrified of
 dogs. So thats good if they are robbers but bad if they are our friends. Here
 are some pictures...
Neema is not too sure about this...

But after a couple of pep talks she warmed up to the little guy.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Jumanne's Reality


Jumanne and all the girls. Umi (3), Hadija (11), and Aziza (5)

Post-bath Kiss



Where they live now.


Entrance to their village..

Sunday, October 18, 2009

He is 8.

This is Jumanne. I met him a couple of weeks ago around 8pm outside the grocery store. It was dark and he was all alone. I was getting out of the car when this sweet face looked at me and in swahili he asked me for bread. Unfortunately I see street kids a lot and i never give to them because all it does is perpetuate the problem of begging. But for some reason God granted me His compassion for this boy. I bought him some bread, milk, and water and then insisted we take him back to his village. The next day I went to his home. If you have seen Slumdog Millionaire, that is what you can picture as his house. Complete slums. He is 8 years old and has not seen his father in three years! He lives with his mother who is a street sweeper and his three sisters. Being the only boy he is now the 'man' of the house. He is 8.  It is now his responsibility to provide when his mother's $1 a day salary runs out. He is 8. He is in 4th grade but its nearly impossible for him to do any homework in this tiny shack with no electricity, no quiet, no supplies. He would rather be out playing soccer with his friends. He is 8. But his little sisters need baths, they need water to be fetched, their needs to be food. He is 8. 

I could not get Jumanne off of my mind and my heart. The situation while there are so many like his was just weighing on me so heavily. There is an African circus in town this month so i decided to take him. We got there had sodas and popcorn and i watched Jumanne more than the show. He was mesmerized by the lights, the sounds, the entertainers. He was clapping and cheering! It was pure delight! After the circus we ran into his two younger sisters at the same grocery store where I met Jumanne. They were filthy dirty as usual and in the same musky
 brown clothes I had met them in. We decided to pile them all in my car and take them home for dinner. (we told another kid from the village to tell their mother) 

We got home and I couldnt wait to give them all baths! Afterward the water was a murky
 brown color. But now they were clean! I smothered them in lotion and pulled out some of Neema's clothes and dressed them in freshness. We then fed them some rice, beans, and veggies and they ate and ate. Jumanne said they had eaten nothing but chai all day. I sting just thinking about it. 

On Sunday they showed up at my gate at 7:45am. All four of them. I quickly threw on a pot of coffee (for myself) and started making some oatmeal (for them.) I took them to church and it was a sight. Neema in one arm and Umi in the other (good thing they are little.) Jumanne can read english so he really enjoyed singing the worship songs and Hadija the oldest was good at keeping eye on everyone. They went to sunday school and colored pictures of Jesus and
 children. Jumanne wrote on his "Jumanne sitting with Jesus." The morning had been nothing short of complete chaos! Oatmeal everywhere.spilled juice.fighting over toys.getting everyone in the car in time. Getting to church. Getting everyone quiet for prayer. But my heart was overflowing with love. 

After we dropped them off at the village and I walked in my door I took in a deep breath. But then I missed the crazy. 
Jumanne, Aziza, and Umi where we found them on the street.
At my house...after baths! 

Friday, October 9, 2009

Our Family

I cant believe its October. I have been here since May. I don't know when we are coming home. Sometimes that can be a terrifying and suffocating feeling. Not only can we not leave until the Tanzanian process is over but then we have to go up against the laws and regulations of my own country! I recently learned visitor visas are not often granted to adopted children, which means that either I go through a lengthy process of applications, interviews, fingerprints, and lots and lots of $$$ or stay here for 2 years until at which point I guess I will be seen as a fit parent and can then return to the United States with my baby. This may help explain why there are 147 MILLION orphans around the world because its like everyone wants to make it as difficult as possible! 

I miss my family and friends so much and its so incredibly hard to not have people know Neema. She is so much a part of me and has helped change me so much and I want people to know us...the people we are and the people God is molding us to be. I was recently reading about Naomi and Ruth and how they were not biologically mother and daughter but about how they loved each other. How when Naomi told Ruth and Orpah to turn around, Ruth would not leave her. Neema and I have this ongoing dialogue with each other where one of us says to the other "Don't leave me...." and the other says "EVER!" Its so precious. But ever since falling in love with someone so much I have started relating my every feeling for her to how Jesus loves me. And how he won't leave me....EVER! (Reference from Ruth 1:16-18)

So when I get sad and lonely for my parents, and my Will and Sims, and my wonderful
 friends....I cling to this amazing life God has provided for me here. We are incredibly blessed. Just last Sunday I was overtaken by the love and community of our church. Such diversity....different nationalities, different languages, different skin colors but all loving Jesus and all loving Neema and me. It is truly the body. We have people checking in on us, asking about the court process, feeding my soul when im tired or need prayer, holding Neema, people speaking to her in english and swahili! It is so amazing to be able to walk alongside others who are in their own valleys and peaks! There is such a spirit of humility and vulnerability among the members of our church and it encourages and gives me hope and strength. When God created families, he had a much bigger vision than just our own mothers, fathers, brothers and sisters. Of course he did, his thoughts are always bigger than our thoughts. He has designed it that we would have mothers, fathers, brothers, and sisters all over the world. And I am t
ruly thankful for that.


Neema just being cute! :) 

Friday, October 2, 2009

Some of my favorite things.....

Just thought today I would talk about some things my sweet Neema does that make me giggle and want to burst with love....

When I hurt myself or look sad she says "What happened my sweetie?" 

How she runs around the house singing "Baby Love...My baby love I need you oh how i need you!" 

When Liza was tickling her the other day she said "stop stop you are killing me..."

When she tells me she loves me 'to the moon and back.' 

This morning she picked up one of my shirts and held it up and said "Cute, right?" 

She was walking out of my room and i said 'are you leaving?'.' and she says 'Ever!! ill never leave you.' 

She is sooooo funny! She makes me laugh everyday and I just can't believe God chose ME to raise His little girl...What an honor. :)